Doctors often refer to the cure rate of cancer starting at about 5 years. But the patient is not truly cured at all. This is called remission. The remission of an alcoholic in sobriety is often measured in days, months and then years. Though an alcoholic has not taken a drink in days, months or years, they too are not cured. You are only in remission or sobriety. As with a cancer patient, they are never really cured. Today I am sober and that’s all I’ve got. I am an alcoholic….
Watch the video of my 5-Year chip acceptance.
In the business world, companies often take inventory, looking at their business practices that may or may not have worked. This is a learning tool to help them be more successful and make positive changes.
I can take inventory in my personal life as well. Envisioning what I want to accomplish and taking an honest look at my current practices, I find ways to be even more successful.
Do I pray? Do I tend to be self-critical? Am I carrying the burden of resentment? I look within and pray for guidance about the next steps I should take. The power of God within me is mighty. My personal inventory helps me use God’s power to learn, grow and experience life more fully.
The power at work within us is able to accomplish abundantly far more than all we can ask or imagine.–|–Ephesians 3:20
The world is changing and crisis grips the nations. Hunger, homelessness, political uprisings, economic uncertainty, war, and the ever-present threat of terrorism. Where can we find hope in these uncertain times?
Daily news reports focus our attention on global events which indicate a world in turmoil. But as distressing as all these events are, there is a crisis that is even more urgent; the fact that death awaits us all. When we die and leave the earth, we must all stand before God!
It is appointed for men to die once and then the judgment. Why the judgment? God is holy and just. But man is sinful and morally bankrupt. So our sin makes us guilty before God. Have you disregarded God and worshiped other things such as people, things, and pleasure? Have you dishonored parents, hated others, lusted or practiced immoral sex or lied? How about envy, greed, selfishness, un-thankfulness, self-righteousness or pride? This willful sin is the breaking of God’s Law! It will hopelessly condemn men on Judgment Day. Where will your hope be then?
But in His kindness, God Himself provides the true hope for us through the death and resurrection of His Son the Lord Jesus Christ. Unlike ordinary men, Jesus Christ is God. His death on the cross was the judgment and wrath of God the we deserve. He paid our debt in His blood. Justice for sin has been satisfied through Him. He rose from the dead, defeating death! The whole world stands hopeless and condemned in sin. But Jesus said, “He who hears my word and believes Him who sent Me has eternal life and does not come into judgment but has passed out of death into life.” Jesus came into the world to save sinners. He is our hope!
Though I have not made it to sponsor status, I can not help but pass along the knowledge I have learned to people who I cross paths with. I am not ashamed of my past alcoholic experiences, only my behavior. I can pull from my past, and pass it on and explain what alcoholism has done to me and what it does to others. By doing so, maybe that newcomer can learn or the struggling alcoholic can understand and help them through a difficult time. Helping can be as simple as listening, but sometimes that’s all it takes. The steps tell us to do the service work and that will help keep us sober. So far, so good!
As my 2nd year rolled around, I had to opportunity to speak at my birthday and chip acceptance meeting which was held on Saturday August 27th 2011. While totally rehearsed, I was drawn to steps 6 and 7.
6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
These seem to be the ones that have meant a lot to me. By finally accepting God into my life, I was ready for him to work me over and change me as a person. I could no longer lead my life the way “I” wanted and had to leave it up to him. Almost 2 years ago, I asked Jesus Christ into my life and things haven’t been the same. Primarily, by not drinking, I have begun to see life in a light that has never been so bright for me. I have been able to forgive, ask for forgiveness, and be forgiven. My life has changed in ways that I would have never believed. Mostly, I am happy and realize that my drinking was just a symptom of my broken character. Now that I have a little time behind me, I can now appreciate and understand that it isn’t all about me, it’s about the way you handle what they call “LIFE”. What a relief!
I now lead a wonderful life full of hope and delight! With God and Jesus walking hand in hand, I have been shown such amazing things. Every day I wake, I ask to be led down the correct path that was, and has always been chosen for me. It may not be the path I choose but at least I know that with my Saviors help, He will guide me through it and beyond.
I am a spiritual being, evolving and growing every day, in every way.
I am continually evolving as a spiritual being. This evolutionary process includes trials and errors as well as joys and opportunities. Each experience I encounter, each relationship I share, each insight I receive offers me the opportunity to grow.
From the moment my life began, I have been evolving and growing. As an infant, through trial and error, I learned to crawl, walk and speak. From there, I moved on to more advanced learning experiences. As an adult, mostly errors entered my path. But day by day, I grow in harmony with the unfolding of the Spirit in me.
It gives me great peace to know that I am a work in progress, growing and evolving to become the person God chose me.
Being an alcoholic you can not become complacent! We are to grow along spiritual lines, not seeking perfection, as the big book states. The AA literature tells you what to do and the moment you stop following the program you will become complacent.
When you fall into a routine, things become regular and you begin to expect things to fall into place, and they should. But you can not expect this always, after all this is life and you can not predict what the outcome will be.
AA doesn’t need you! You need AA! It will continue whether you are there or not.
You can never be a functioning alcoholic, there is no such thing!